happy mothers day for you my superwoman

dearest mommy,!

i don`t know what to give you for your day..i`m  thinking but i still can`t get a clue..Mommy do you know that you are my source of energy and like my drugs because without you ..i don`t even know what will happen to me today..I hope you are healthy forever and may Allah blessed your life with lots of rezeki..last but not least your the best mom and im proud of you and i want to be like you somedayss

Happy Birthday my SuperHero

To my dearest dad a.k.a my superhero..i will always love you no matter how old your age might reach. I love you always and i always remember how you teach me when im small until im big enough to stay on my feet..I will also remember how you carried me from my school when it was raining and there was a small flood in front of my school gate. I will also remember how you used to fetch me (until now you still fetch me) when im sick and stay with me during my sickness come visit me in other home.Buy all the foods that im craving whenever you have money. Im happy and I love you for being my dad.No one can replace you in my heart and life..Last but not least i want to give a big hug and Happy Birthday Mr. Zainol Abidin May Allah bless your life and may Allah give you a lots of "Rezeki".

me and suha = trips

Yesterday me and Nasuha went to Kelana Sentral to fetch Nasuha`s ticket. Off we went from our apartment to the Lrt station.As we reached there Nasuha wanted to take a lift so off we go. Inside the lift we were like lost "what to press?", said Nasuha to me. "I dunno what to press also ", i said to Nasuha. As we were wondering suddenly a voice came from the speaker saying "Kak Limah" . At that moment me and suha become really speechless after a few minuts we laugh about it..(actually when i write it it`s not so funny as you imagine it can be ). Late evening we reach home and  we ate the stall in front of Giant to my surprise it is tasty..

Losing myself

Lately i have been feeling so empty and so freaking unpredictable. I just feel like i don`t even know what is wrong with me. I try very hard to smile everyday but the more i try the more it hurts in the heart..I love to see my friends happy.One theory of mine that is so common in everybody life..everybody can fake a smile but only a true friends can see,hear and share the same pain and the same happiness same betrayal and sometimes same life pattern..I don`t understand until now..why can some people have a very perfect life,perfect boyfriend and perfect family background. I`m not saying my life is not perfect like them..No what i mean right now is like why are they so perfect. They always come with the first package. They are always smart,rich,good looking and super tall..Sometimes i always feel that if i were rich life would be easier but then the fact is always a fact.When you come with the package you can`t see the reason behind each of the friendship.You also can`see the real friends who likes you just the way you are.

To................... well you know who you are my girlfriend till death.I don`t care where you came from what is your past background.

• All i want to say here is that i love you just the way you are.

• Don`t try to change who you are..cause you are beautiful just the way you are.

• I hoped that we always be friends until death separates us.

• I will promise to you if im in a relationship..you are my first priority besides my family.

Oh that is so you..Backstabbers

Backstabber

dearest backstabber...this is only for you..

Just before you never speak to me again remember when you used to be my friend. You treated me like shit. I’m never gonna deny it and I even played your little game. I was there every time you called my name. I still thought our friendship would last but now everything is in the past. All the secrets I shared and you never even cared so lemme tell you and don’t make me repeat it: I fuckin hate you and yes, I mean it.

First i know you as a girl..who seems to be loving, caring and someone whom i can trust. Thank you for the times you help me through this.I promise to you that i can never tell how grateful i am at that times when you really help me to recover before you did worst to me.I really did trust you and make you as my friends.I even fight for you when someone bad mouth about you.I trusted you thats why i fight with my guts and tell you what i went through from primary school to high school and to college.I did like what you say and i believe you for trying to understand me.I still don`t know why im so stupid to cry over u..worried over you..trying to protect you..but in the end i still get the same result and thank you for spreading a bad rumors about me..After what had happen i still don`t mind what you did to me.Im just so torn and hurt by what you are doing right now.So now i just wish that you don`t pretend to love me and be friends with me anymore.Some people may say i`m stupid for loving someone called friends soo much.I never know that sometimes friends are important but most of the time friend are just someone who would be there in some season..Example friends for happy times are when school break but there are a few friends who would also stay through with you throughout the year..Through happy moments and through sad moments..But thats a whole different stories.I must admit that i love to make friends but unfortunately i don`t love to be friends with you BACKSTABBER..and before i end this lemme say this to you..

Some people come into our lives and walk with us a mile and then because of circumstances they only stay awhile. They serve a need within the days that move so quickly by and then are gone beyond our reach. We often wonder why. God only knows the reason that we meet and share a smile, why people come into our lives and walk with us a mile.

This is my kinda boys !!

Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please DO NOT spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your blogs, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in your blogs to answer this. Then see what happens.

if you're a guy - post this as "my kind of girl"

if you're a girl - post it as "my kind of guy"

to whichever gender you prefer, really.

 1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?

 dun really care as long as he loves me with no condition

2. Smart?

smarter than me, of coursee

3. Preferred age?

older or the same age as me

4. Preferred height?

TALLER than me =)..but then same height is also okiee for me

5. How about sense of humor?

 of course

6. How about piercings?

NEVER!!nooooo

7. Accepts you for who you are?

love with no conditions.(very important oneee)

8. Pink hair?

Neverrrr

9. Mushy or no?

blurrrb

10. Thin or fat?

not too fat or not too skinny...healthy one i loved it

11. Black, Brown, Yellow or White (skin color)?

i dunno what to say or comment..Don`t wanna be racist 

12. Long hair or short hair?

not too shortt..prefer short one

13. Plastic or metal?

blurrrrb

14. Smells good?

of course....

15. Smoker?

i hope not to get one..

16. Drinker?

HARAM!!(NO)

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?

depends on me to choose..rite now im loving myself first

18. Muscular?

dun really care as long as he is not (boyot or gendot)..i just want him to be healthy

19. Plays piano?

<3 <3  love love him

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?

love him and adore him

21. Plays violin?

borink for me i like piano a lot better but if can`t be a musician its okay

22. Sings very well?

lovely for me..because sometimes he can sing for me

23. Vain?

NOOOOO NEVERRRRR...hate them for being like girls sometimes

24. With glasses?

sometimes cutiee sometimes nerdiee..i dunno i dun mind if he have or not

25. With braces?

hmmmmmmmm..cutiee guys but if does not have it also it is okay for me.

26. Shy type?

can but Not sooo shyyy

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?

BOTH!!!

28. Active or passive?

both..haha

29. Tight or bomb?

blurrrb..im blur about this question

30. Singer or dancer?

singer i can consider it but dancer i guess its a No for me

31. Stunner?

i dunno how to answer this...

32. Hiphop?

Maybe if that is destiny..i will embrace it

33. Earrings?

prefer NO..i like it simple and clean appearance

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?

blurbb...

35. Dimples?

maybe blurbb..i dunno what to decide

36. Bookworm?

love it because there is a not a lot of boys who loves to read books

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?

maybeeee

38. Playful?

okay...i guess

39. Flirt?

WITH ME ONLY CAN

40. Poem writer?

awesomeee

41. Serious?

maybeee

42. Campus crush?

no comment lt e be the only one who knows it

43. Painter?

yes and no

44. Religious?

maybeee.its okay if it is my fate

45. Someone who likes to tease people?

Don`t really like this type.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?

Like it sometimes..sometimes not

47. Speaks 20 languages?

yeah awesomee.i love it if he can can communicate if not human are not perfect.

48. Loyal or faithful?

Both better!!

49. Good kisser?

hmmmmmmm.shhhhhhh let me only noeee

50. Loves children?

awesomeee.i love ittt



Yeap its all about me..random post

Read it through and then decide to hate me or love me..

01.Grew up in Kampung Baru and Semenyih and Setiawangsa 

02.Really like Darlie toothpaste

03.Loves to play Barbie when i was small and Im x ashamed to say i still like watching Barbie movies.

04.Second daughter and im always the very "manja" with my mum n dad

05.Koreanmovieholic and koreansongholic

06.Loves to watch zombie kampung pisang and hantu kak limah balik umah  and over and over again.

07.Really love a singer named Brian Joo min kyu. Oppa saranghaeyo !!!.

08.Have a 3 close girlfriends Bella, Jaja, Ain..Frequently i called them by Biee.

09.Not so tall. Im just a small Asian girl.

10.Love to bake but on my own willingness..not by forcing me to do it.

11.Love aeroplanes so much till my mum n dad are bored of that topics

12. Easily hurt and easily close too people..but if you  throw a shit at me i will never give a damn about you anymore.

13.Love mommies, tok lat and tante mimi..cookings.

14.Don`t really like studies like theory study..Only like practical classes..

15.Will NEVER DRINK AND TAKE DRUGS.

16.Hmm my birthday on june 16teen..hehee.

17.Was born on year 1992

18. I hate backstabber but i always meet them on my way to a new journey.

19.I am a very FUSSY person.

20. Yes im still waiting for my Mr. to approach me gently.

21.I love to eat white chocolate and pasta

22.Love wedges shoes and i love buying handbags and purse.

23.Love to wear dresses.

25.Love to watch cartoon, comedian,romance don`t love horror movies.

26.Love Sony Ericsson phones rather than Nokia.

27.Dun really like going out when it is raining.

28.Love to sing at anytime..music is my bestfriend and my advisor

29.Love to travel..especially to south Korea

30. Once in a while love reading malay novel 

31.Learn how to speak korean once.

32.Opss forget to mention about favorite nasyid somg maher zain - BarakAllah

33.My friend says i`m talkative and sometimes annoying.

34.If i dun noe u im be very quite once i know you..my mouth just can`t shut.

35.I have friends who smoke but i DON`T SMOKE.

36.Afraid of the lizard,snake, cockroach, frogs.

37. Most afraid of Allah S.W.T

38.Hate losing in anything

39.Love to spent money and time with family

40.Finally its easy for me to forgive but its hard to forget what others did to you.

You decide what is your favorite part of me and you can also help me to improve some of my weakness.

Awesome day for me and my girls

 Yesterday i had a great day with my girls. Presenting the important characters in my life and schools life journey..(besides my family)

         

My Bella Biee

          

My Jaja Biee

       

My Honey Biee

Me..&College mate 

How my day started yesterday !

I woke up at 10 a.m received a text from my girls saying that they wanted to gather for Bella`s birthday.So i`m thinking i have to get up and dress and meet her later since i was missing her for quite a few weeks and most of all its her birthday.She deserved some special moment in her teen life.As soon as i prepared for my shower i started to think about getting her present...so no need to think for a long time i decided to bought her macaroons with different flavors but then the flavor that she wanted was not on the sale that day..so i bought her each different flavor at the G Tower near the shopping mall Ampang Park.Gosh they sells tasty macaroons until my friend Nasuha who never eats macaroons are dying to taste it on her own tongue. Oppss i forgot to mention i went with Nasuha my college mate to see Bella, Jaja and Ain. After we had done with buying macaroons we went straight back to the Lrt Putra station to fetch a train back to Dang Wangi in order to take a monorail. Finally at three o`clock we arrived at the Times Square waiting for Bella and my Ain honey biee. According to Bella, Jaja will arrived later than us.So we met at Wendy`s then we started to as ussual ladies..Gossiping about school lifes, new mates in college, work place,updating each other with every news feed..Until Jaja arrived to met us at the same place. Half an hour later we were already in front of Johnny`s restaurant ordering a steamboat set for four person.While waiting for the food to cook we all had a great time chit chatting and remembering good memories.Done with the food we celebrate with a small Tiramisu cake.Bloated with food we left Johnny`s thought of going back home but can`t couse did not even get to meet my third parents and if i go home that time it won`t be nice not to see them eventhough they are 

just on the second level.Planned proceed to Plaza Low Yat because Bella`s handphone need to reformat.Around eight thirty me and Nasuha still undecided.Before we make up our mind Jaja is still pursuing her mission to buy stuff for overnight at Bella`s house.Until we went inside the car and thats it the decision has been made.That time we both know we have made the final decision no more turning back.First time i had overnight at Bella`s place with my other girls heee..

Me, Bella,Jaja

Me and Bella

Me,Bella, Jaja,Suha.

After done with the bb area we then proceed to last destination Al Rawsha..Food not bad and we had great moments who cares about other people, other places or the times flies..

AL RAWSHA RESTAURANT

What`s wrong with me

What,Why,Where,When and how did I ?

Lately im been feeling good and its hard to say it now..its no longer good to me anymore..I really don`t understand why this is happening..it was always a good start but end up being stupid...i hate this part where the hurts starts to come in and rub off the happiness..I know that falling in love is easy but then falling for betrayal is worst..and I wonder why does it always always always fall for the wrong one...Why not now this time this moment the right one appears in front of me..healing me with all sorts of magic potion..When did i ever can discover a life with no pain..so i created a theory that can ease my pain

WordsOf_Truth Truth 

Feelings can grow stronger and stronger but they can also fly away.#fact

DAMNlovetweets Daydreamer♥ 

Letting go isn't about giving up.It's about accepting the fact that there are things in life that just can't be.

Happy Wednesday People !

I had an awesome morning due to waking up seeing Farah Asthura in front of me. Then i started to fresh up and pray to Allah so that this day He will give me more happiness than sadness.. Right in the middle of afternoon i went to English Communication and hell yeah fun and fun and fun..In the evening I went to Kuala Lumpur Sentral with Nasuha to fetch her train ticket so that she can go back to her hometown.Done with the tickets.. Of course we had our girls moment..for a few minutes then we went for walking while waiting for time to pass us by..After taking the train to home I received a very good new saying that Kak Aisha and Angah Jomeys baby Dhaniah is recovering from her sickness and she is starting to drink her milk from her mama. this wednedsay is really a good day. 

F.R.I.E.N.D.S. - (F)ight for you. (R)espect you. (I)nvolve you. (E)ncourage you. (N)eed you. (D)eserve you and (S)tand by you.#HTST

          What do we wish by getting this way.


 Its true sometimes we rely too many hoped on the person until we did not realise that maybe our careness have broad this situation becoming worse and i can see this might lead to fighthing or sulking. There are times in my theory are better off than talk about it..Its okay if we can can crawl at first the slowly we developed to walk again then we slowly jump until we can reach for the solution to be strong without that someone..As we all know someday in just a minute Allah can take our lives away from our love once..so live life for your own and make yourself protected and happy first then only you can figure out others. 

Al fatihah..

Dear baby boy !
i wish you could join our madness family behaviour.
i am thankful that your a part of my families life.
I hoped you will wait at the gate of heaven for your mother.
i know you`r in a better place right now
i will always pray for you and your baby sister.
lastly i love you baby boy even though i get to see you for a little time.

    Yesterday me and my family went to the hospital to visit kak Aisha and Angah Jomey after we all heard that she had born a premature twin babies..one girl and one boy.So everything was a little bit okay for the mommies and the babies..Suddenly my mom told me that one of the twins the baby boy got infected with pneumonia. So we all were worried about the boy and we pray for him to be safe and healthy..we also did pray for the baby girl. I reach home around eight o`clock. Suddenly my dad n my mum received a phone call from my uncle and aunt saying that we all lost the baby due he is not strong enough to fight these disease and Allah loves him more and right now the baby girl was stable..and i always will pray for the mommies and the babies healthy.

Dream High to the sky

    Everyone has a dream and to get through the dreams we have to pass through obstacle in love and life first.What is your dreams??. Mine is to became a professional home baker!.. i just love to bake..baking some cake or breads make me so happy. In my other home i always wanted to baked soo much but the there are times where i fell so lazy and i end up sleeping or wasting my time..Mummy keep complaining when im in the lazy mood to cook or baked something..i wish i could throw this sickness far far away..just like the word that shrek likes to say to donkey.hehe. I have been studying for almost half of the year but yet i still did not even try to get a part time job for me. I realize in order for me to achieve my dreams i have to sacrifice a lot of things. Not to forget i must also be courages to accept my mistake and to learn from the mistake. Until now i still did not know what is so great about receiving diploma and in the future when i decided to take my studies to a degree course and i am still going to ask the same thing what is so great about it. I have choose the path that i want but i am still searching for where this road might lead me to in the future. Question that keep popping up in my mind is.. Will i ever have more abilities than other? Will i do a good job everyday? Do i have a job in the future? and there are so many moree question.

Farah Asthura

 Seriously i truly forgot what does it feel to have someone whom you trust like your family.I also forget what does it feel to have another besties after your school days. A couple months ago i met her..we are studying in the same collage and not the same course and not the same batch of intakes.It`s a little bit weird how suddenly i want to be friends with her even though at first we were like a stranger who are both alone..lost in our own world of silence..Then after a few weeks of knowing her i started to be more familiar and comfortable with her. So i started to talk to her.. Just trying my luck if she is friendly? or she`s the type who would typically pick only the pretty ones to be her mates. I was all wrong about her.. She is the type who would never choose look to be friends with her..she is also a good listener to a friends..she is a strong women who can manage to hold her fears and problems to herself.. She is also a very very generous person..She stays very low profile about her prettiness..one thing i really love about her is she is always there for me and so did i to her..we are like the buddies for crime,happiness,sadness,madness .What is a friend ? why do you need them or why is it each one of us need to and have friends.. It does not matter whether your a close friend, best friend, friends for motivation or friends for hard times and good times..i have to say this to all of the people and please remember this. To find a friends through happy moments are so easy but to find a friends who would shed you her tears for you or to cry with you through hard times are so difficult. Appreciate you friends make them see that even though your far away from them you still care for them..

Have to learn to live with it..

Newbies Roommates !



  Wake up in the morning with an a annoying voice came "Nurul" one of my roommate.I hate waking up in morning with madness through voices or screaming or talking rudely..i hate my morning wake up for today..but then im a little happy due to receiving massage from Mr "G" hehe..Yesterday was a very happy day for me due to spending a lot of my time outside the house and getting to know someones secret..hehehe..ops i also got to see and hang out Mr "G". By the way i should be back to the topic that i wanna share with you. About my new roommates they have just arrived this morning with their parents. My new roommates are from Pahang and Perak.. i just got to know them and now i have to share many things with them ..im not being stingy but im just not used to this awkward moment..i hope they are not like my currently roommates...hehehe i really wish and hoped that.I  hope tomorrows there will be no more roommate..i feel very uneasy with this situation in apartment that our collage provided is so small and in the house the management wish to squeeze the 16 of us inside a small apartment.don`t they know the word called ridiculous. i want to be nice to them but truth is im afraid to be nice to to others. I am also afraid of being hurt again..friends in collage and in school is so freaking different.. Everyday i thank to Allah for giving me "Bella". A friend when your in sick or in health .. a friend you can depend on and a friend you can trust for!.

Question in life ?

what is Love ?

Lately everybody is talking about partners in life..as always love does not seem to bother me much...me and my siblings talk about the Korean celebrity such as 브라이언 주 (Brian Joo Minkyu). well my sister she says she is in love with (Hyeo young saeng) but seriously nobody can say it with same answer to the definiton about love. People always tend to say you can feel the love but no one can describe it in words. I tried my very best to figure it out..when i was a little girl in my primary school..i always Google thing like what is love and how does love work..but Google only give me this crappy answer.. and so i figure this out for myself..only a person who is in love will have the answer to his/her love story.I wanna feel happy like old days but the truth is im soo scared to go back to life where you must deal with either happiness or sadness.


What is life ? 


Alhamdulillah im happy at this moment where i have a great family and great friends but then i started to think what is life all about for me?..on the previous day i ask my friend what is life for you?.. Her answer to me was so simple eat,sleep,friends and  married to the person you love and die!.. but i think life is more than just being social and living the life status of your life or family..i think its more about the religion you choose and be closer to your God ..you can only have one life so why not you do all the stuff you want but still you remember God..because at the end of the day we all may Die and at the end of the day we all are judge by how many good things like Pahala we get then we also are judge Dosa then we proceed to heaven or hell.The End of our life.