What`s wrong with me

What,Why,Where,When and how did I ?

Lately im been feeling good and its hard to say it now..its no longer good to me anymore..I really don`t understand why this is happening..it was always a good start but end up being stupid...i hate this part where the hurts starts to come in and rub off the happiness..I know that falling in love is easy but then falling for betrayal is worst..and I wonder why does it always always always fall for the wrong one...Why not now this time this moment the right one appears in front of me..healing me with all sorts of magic potion..When did i ever can discover a life with no pain..so i created a theory that can ease my pain

WordsOf_Truth Truth 

Feelings can grow stronger and stronger but they can also fly away.#fact

DAMNlovetweets Daydreamer♥ 

Letting go isn't about giving up.It's about accepting the fact that there are things in life that just can't be.

Happy Wednesday People !

I had an awesome morning due to waking up seeing Farah Asthura in front of me. Then i started to fresh up and pray to Allah so that this day He will give me more happiness than sadness.. Right in the middle of afternoon i went to English Communication and hell yeah fun and fun and fun..In the evening I went to Kuala Lumpur Sentral with Nasuha to fetch her train ticket so that she can go back to her hometown.Done with the tickets.. Of course we had our girls moment..for a few minutes then we went for walking while waiting for time to pass us by..After taking the train to home I received a very good new saying that Kak Aisha and Angah Jomeys baby Dhaniah is recovering from her sickness and she is starting to drink her milk from her mama. this wednedsay is really a good day. 

F.R.I.E.N.D.S. - (F)ight for you. (R)espect you. (I)nvolve you. (E)ncourage you. (N)eed you. (D)eserve you and (S)tand by you.#HTST

          What do we wish by getting this way.


 Its true sometimes we rely too many hoped on the person until we did not realise that maybe our careness have broad this situation becoming worse and i can see this might lead to fighthing or sulking. There are times in my theory are better off than talk about it..Its okay if we can can crawl at first the slowly we developed to walk again then we slowly jump until we can reach for the solution to be strong without that someone..As we all know someday in just a minute Allah can take our lives away from our love once..so live life for your own and make yourself protected and happy first then only you can figure out others. 

Al fatihah..

Dear baby boy !
i wish you could join our madness family behaviour.
i am thankful that your a part of my families life.
I hoped you will wait at the gate of heaven for your mother.
i know you`r in a better place right now
i will always pray for you and your baby sister.
lastly i love you baby boy even though i get to see you for a little time.

    Yesterday me and my family went to the hospital to visit kak Aisha and Angah Jomey after we all heard that she had born a premature twin babies..one girl and one boy.So everything was a little bit okay for the mommies and the babies..Suddenly my mom told me that one of the twins the baby boy got infected with pneumonia. So we all were worried about the boy and we pray for him to be safe and healthy..we also did pray for the baby girl. I reach home around eight o`clock. Suddenly my dad n my mum received a phone call from my uncle and aunt saying that we all lost the baby due he is not strong enough to fight these disease and Allah loves him more and right now the baby girl was stable..and i always will pray for the mommies and the babies healthy.

Dream High to the sky

    Everyone has a dream and to get through the dreams we have to pass through obstacle in love and life first.What is your dreams??. Mine is to became a professional home baker!.. i just love to bake..baking some cake or breads make me so happy. In my other home i always wanted to baked soo much but the there are times where i fell so lazy and i end up sleeping or wasting my time..Mummy keep complaining when im in the lazy mood to cook or baked something..i wish i could throw this sickness far far away..just like the word that shrek likes to say to donkey.hehe. I have been studying for almost half of the year but yet i still did not even try to get a part time job for me. I realize in order for me to achieve my dreams i have to sacrifice a lot of things. Not to forget i must also be courages to accept my mistake and to learn from the mistake. Until now i still did not know what is so great about receiving diploma and in the future when i decided to take my studies to a degree course and i am still going to ask the same thing what is so great about it. I have choose the path that i want but i am still searching for where this road might lead me to in the future. Question that keep popping up in my mind is.. Will i ever have more abilities than other? Will i do a good job everyday? Do i have a job in the future? and there are so many moree question.

Farah Asthura

 Seriously i truly forgot what does it feel to have someone whom you trust like your family.I also forget what does it feel to have another besties after your school days. A couple months ago i met her..we are studying in the same collage and not the same course and not the same batch of intakes.It`s a little bit weird how suddenly i want to be friends with her even though at first we were like a stranger who are both alone..lost in our own world of silence..Then after a few weeks of knowing her i started to be more familiar and comfortable with her. So i started to talk to her.. Just trying my luck if she is friendly? or she`s the type who would typically pick only the pretty ones to be her mates. I was all wrong about her.. She is the type who would never choose look to be friends with her..she is also a good listener to a friends..she is a strong women who can manage to hold her fears and problems to herself.. She is also a very very generous person..She stays very low profile about her prettiness..one thing i really love about her is she is always there for me and so did i to her..we are like the buddies for crime,happiness,sadness,madness .What is a friend ? why do you need them or why is it each one of us need to and have friends.. It does not matter whether your a close friend, best friend, friends for motivation or friends for hard times and good times..i have to say this to all of the people and please remember this. To find a friends through happy moments are so easy but to find a friends who would shed you her tears for you or to cry with you through hard times are so difficult. Appreciate you friends make them see that even though your far away from them you still care for them..

Have to learn to live with it..

Newbies Roommates !



  Wake up in the morning with an a annoying voice came "Nurul" one of my roommate.I hate waking up in morning with madness through voices or screaming or talking rudely..i hate my morning wake up for today..but then im a little happy due to receiving massage from Mr "G" hehe..Yesterday was a very happy day for me due to spending a lot of my time outside the house and getting to know someones secret..hehehe..ops i also got to see and hang out Mr "G". By the way i should be back to the topic that i wanna share with you. About my new roommates they have just arrived this morning with their parents. My new roommates are from Pahang and Perak.. i just got to know them and now i have to share many things with them ..im not being stingy but im just not used to this awkward moment..i hope they are not like my currently roommates...hehehe i really wish and hoped that.I  hope tomorrows there will be no more roommate..i feel very uneasy with this situation in apartment that our collage provided is so small and in the house the management wish to squeeze the 16 of us inside a small apartment.don`t they know the word called ridiculous. i want to be nice to them but truth is im afraid to be nice to to others. I am also afraid of being hurt again..friends in collage and in school is so freaking different.. Everyday i thank to Allah for giving me "Bella". A friend when your in sick or in health .. a friend you can depend on and a friend you can trust for!.

Question in life ?

what is Love ?

Lately everybody is talking about partners in life..as always love does not seem to bother me much...me and my siblings talk about the Korean celebrity such as 브라이언 주 (Brian Joo Minkyu). well my sister she says she is in love with (Hyeo young saeng) but seriously nobody can say it with same answer to the definiton about love. People always tend to say you can feel the love but no one can describe it in words. I tried my very best to figure it out..when i was a little girl in my primary school..i always Google thing like what is love and how does love work..but Google only give me this crappy answer.. and so i figure this out for myself..only a person who is in love will have the answer to his/her love story.I wanna feel happy like old days but the truth is im soo scared to go back to life where you must deal with either happiness or sadness.


What is life ? 


Alhamdulillah im happy at this moment where i have a great family and great friends but then i started to think what is life all about for me?..on the previous day i ask my friend what is life for you?.. Her answer to me was so simple eat,sleep,friends and  married to the person you love and die!.. but i think life is more than just being social and living the life status of your life or family..i think its more about the religion you choose and be closer to your God ..you can only have one life so why not you do all the stuff you want but still you remember God..because at the end of the day we all may Die and at the end of the day we all are judge by how many good things like Pahala we get then we also are judge Dosa then we proceed to heaven or hell.The End of our life.

newcomers..